Do you ever feel as if you lost yourself somewhere along the
way? If you've had a bad time or an extraordinarily good one, do you ever look
in the mirror and wonder exactly who's looking back at you? Because you've
changed, and you're not sure what to do with the person who's there.
I'm feeling thoughty here--can you tell? I'm always, always whining about how much I hate change, yet when I look back--over bad times and extraordinarily good ones, it's an ongoing cycle, isn't it? It's what keeps life new and interesting. And, yeah, sometimes awful.
But if it weren't for change, and my kicking-and-screaming caving to it, I would:
- Never
have changed jobs and I'd have been stuck with working one I hated.
- Never
have married the man I did because he wasn't the first person I loved.
- I'd
never have had a third child.
- I'd
have given up the first time a publisher said Nope.
- Or
maybe the second.
- For
sure by the twenty-third.
- I'd
have kept my hair short.
- And
let it go gray.
- I'd
still be writing longhand on lined paper and thinking I wasn't good
enough.
- For
anything,
So, no, I don't always know the woman in the mirror, or, for
that matter, the man I'm married to. I don't always like either of us. There
are days when I do feel like I've lost the person I was.
Because I have. Because every re-invention in every time of life is change,
it's often hard, and it's always necessary. I think maybe I like it.
The post above isn't new. I found it when I was out cruising around trying to avoid the place in the scene I'm writing when I realize I turned the wrong way at the last corner. I thought maybe I shouldn't use it here because this is, after all, a writing blog.
But what is writing if not the recording of change? What we write--including fiction--wouldn't have much purpose if the story didn't start where something changes. I love knowing this. It feels almost like that "secret handshake" we used to laugh about published authors having.
Carol's life is about to undergo some changes in The Healing Summer, starting when Steven Elliot rides his bicycle into the side of her car in the cemetery. I loved their story!
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Carol's life is about to undergo some changes in The Healing Summer, starting when Steven Elliot rides his bicycle into the side of her car in the cemetery. I loved their story!
Be sure to sign up for this month's Romance Gems giveaway https://romancegems.blogspot.com/p/blog-page_28.html
























